Ok, so I am officially 21, and no matter how many times this is said I will continue to disbelieve this. I never thought I would actually make it this far in life and be in the places I have made it to. I still feel like I am 14, and it seems odd that I am no longer a kid. My life has taken so many turns, but I guess to end up where you need to be bumps and broken things happen so that the good things and good people can get through. Especially since I have someone that no matter how bad we fight still makes me smile and miss him and can't wait to see him since he is here for my bday starting wednesday which will be awesome.

 After being sick so often because of everything thats gone on with my health, it still seems odd to have made it another year, which is odd for a 21 yr old to be saying. Brief synopsis: had cancer, cured this coming march :), because of it I have asthma which has decided that bronchitis is fun to have lol, and have always been anemic. But the sickness which hereafter is named Plague by me, that is the last two weeks that has made me fall behind in classes and start panicking and trying to get caught up as well as relook at what I want out of life. 

I am thinking that I will have another semester here at college since I am a double major, but am not sure that I want to stay a Computer Science major or get a Computer Information Systems degree instead. Perks of the first; I know the programming and can make my own, perks of the second is that I am more inclined to work with others. Anti-social or not, doesn't help that I have a tendency to one extreme over the other depending on the day.  

No matter what I decide about the computer degree I will always love History first, it is the one thing that has always been a fascination and at times an obsession to learn about. My current obsession is learning about the various schools of fencing in the middle ages, its fascinating. The various weaponry used and even how they recorded what they taught is interesting. Just need to decide where and for what I am going to grad school. Been looking at University of Pennsylvania in Philly, but I've visited Philly once, and wasn't a giant fan. They do have a professor there who I have used multiple times as a source for various papers and having him would be awesome, but at the same time I have also begun looking for schools that have Latin offered because it is something that I have never lost my passion for learning. Its a beautiful language and its being forgotten and killed by the inability of our education systems to do anything more then "basic" education anymore. 

But thats a rant for another blog, I should be getting some sleep, because this is night three that my sleep schedule is screwed up because of sleeping non-stop almost for two days from being sick. With this I bid ado and good night/morning, and remark: its my birthday its my birthday its my birthday

(I may be 21 but am still a kid at heart :) )